From Glory to Grind------Where is my red carpet?
Life after FCPS Orthodontics----The unseen mandatory reality check for FCPS-II Aspirants💥
We all struggle while trying to get through residency, for our ideal exam cases to finish nicely, to keep their records safe, clear our exit FCPS-II exam etc etc. But no one prepares you for what comes after. We see those that clear FCPS-II Theory with such envy and wishful thinking that when it will be our turn. The first ever jhatka we get is when we pass theory and there's no joy but absolute Fear engulfing our being. The fear of passing TOACS and Long Case in due attempts and not going for a relapse afterwards.
If you are among the top 30-40% of those lucky ones who do get through then this blog is for you. The moment you receive the E-mail/E-Log update that you did pass your FCPS-II Orthodontics, there will be a sigh of relief. A bojh being lifted up your head/shoulder/knees. This will be followed by lonnng list of phone calls, messages, screams, tears, and muffled cries you hear of your loved ones (or yourself if you are not as stoned as I was when I passed). The next day, next week and a month will be a little joyous with your tiny "Kuch toh hua hai" moments here and there.
Now the second and the third month is where the reality starts kicking in....first one being:
"tum se pahle vo jo ik shaḳhs yahāñ taḳht-nashīñ thā
us ko bhī apne ḳhudā hone pe itnā hī yaqīñ thā"
(Annd Yes I copied it from somewhere I can't remember these nice poetic lines cuz dimagh ab chalne se inkaari hai, plus I wrote it all wrong khud se!)
It is also around the same time when you realize k Bhai-jaan FCPS toh bohut hain duniya main aur naukriyaan bohut kam. Uss k baad teesra jhatka jo lagay ga wo SR-ship (senior registrar) and AP (Assistant Professor) banny k beech ki jung hai. A.P bannay k baad pata lagay ga k duniya mn koi khaas kamal nahe hua hai.....dhakkay apke wese he chal rahay hain. There will some major disputes in Salary that you will be offered and some major hairaani of how much kharcha this degree will still entail......
This onwards a never-changing view of Life will start and this will be the first time you'll associate with "Manngo-Kochhwaan" From Naya Qanoon (Saadat Hasan Manto).
I will re-write this blog sometime later and will add a bit more of Nascent-FCPS-Orthodontics-Experiences but this was written for a minor fraction of us. I came across a few students last yr January who shared these struggles with me and then a few of them went abroad to pursue some good financial gains ....very rightly so. A few of them are still here struggling, some of them have quit giving part 2 attempts all together while others have become a general dentist forgetting the Orthodontic PG Life. A few of them switched to a non-clinical field. It sometimes make me wonder had we known what's in-store for Future-Us we might have taken a detour very early on. The rest of people can still enjoy the status. This, by no way means that you shouldn't finish what you started. You must finish your degree because it will pave way for the Future-You ....no matter how detracted the Future-You are. But this writing should also soothe you in ways that at times there is a different calling in life and only if you feel like it, then you must listen to it. For me this degree has made me more humble than ever before k ~hum se pehle b yahan thay hum jaise bht se log.....
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