Its been a long night without you, my friend

 It's been a long night without you Abba.

Grief is anger with nowhere to go, as I am told. 

I don't know what I have managed to do thus far. I don't remember most of my life, post 13 June 2024 after 6AM.

What I have learned is: I have learned to wake up with the thought of you. Train my mind, body and soul to live 3 different versions of the very same life. One in my head with you. One what might have beens. And the last one, without you.

What I have learned is it will remain the same. No matter what I do. The backgroud, the stage of my life is gone and the scorching sun just never goes away. 

I have learned to think the longer versions of things. One starts with you, our discussions and slowly I transition into a life where your room is empty. I walk in trying not to look on your bed. 

Dinners are difficult. I don't find your leftovers now. So most of the time I am clueless as to what I shohld eat. I haven't made breakfast since you left. You were the only one I used to wake up for. I find it difficult to look at british comedy shows. Since I can't share it with you. I can't read newspapers or books now. I have lost routine. I don't organize stuff now.

I haven't scooped through your things since ages. The smell of your cologne hits me like a rock and I timetravel.

I don't dance to my favorite music anymore. I don't look at black n white movies. I don't read jokes and I don't solve puzzles.

I cannot watch Lion King now. I find it difficult to wear sketchers. All my change is finished and I have officially run out of coins. I found pine nuts in my cabinet last december and I broke down like anything. I don't know who to call when something nice happens.

It is indeed been a long night Abbu ......without you my friend, my only friend.

Thing with Orthodontics

 I am writing a series where I try and answer most commonly asked questions I come across on various platforms (Quora etc). This one is about whether or not you should step into Orthodontics.

The thing with Orthodontics---whether you practice it or you are studying it or you are in any way remotely related to it, IS that it evolves. And it evolves quite quickly. So, unless you are ready to be a student/keen learner all your life please do not step into it. It is like the noment you will master one technique, another cool device/software/appliance will be launched and your previous experience almost an expertise will be forced to be flown outta window. Leaving you at square one. This will happen quite often.

You need a bit of delusion, defiance, humbleness and ability to conform to fit into this maize we call Orthodontics. 

Absolutely anything can change your perception. Remember! It takes only one patient, one case to tame your pompous self. 

If you are somebody who doesn't like being corrected very often please do not step into Orthodontics.

If you are somebody who was not into Physics then please retreat.

If you are somebody who is not resilient enough.... the quality akin to that of a phoenix then please consider other fields in dentistry.

If you are somebody who likes a step by step guide or a cookbook for everything then Orthodontics is Not for you. Because every case is different. Much like our fingerprints.

Hope this helps!